It is no secret that this has been a horrendous year for me. I’ve been beaten down, dragged out and kicked straight in the ass. Numerous times. I have spent a considerable time wallowing in self pity and pure 100% grief, as is normal.
But the time for that has ended. Oh, I know I’ve declared war on my despair numerous times in this blog, which is far less than I’ve declared it to friends and family. However, the truth is, when you are fighting continually difficult circumstances, you need to make daily decisions to keep on fighting and not give up.
I got an earful this weekend about what a terrible human being I am and how it is amazing that someone as morally corrupt and despicable as myself is even allowed to draw breath upon this earth. It really hit me hard, as I am a person that takes things very much to heart as I strive to do better, live right and improve myself. Yet again I found myself plunged into despair as I lost grip of someone who is a very, very dear soul to me.
But I can not and will not stay there. As flawed as I am, I am determined to fight to make myself a better person. I can not give up and let the circumstances of my life tear apart what little I have left to be grateful for. You can not beat a person who doesn’t give up. And as much as life has thrown at me, I have discovered that I am not a person who gives up.
So, I will take my revenge upon those that have thwarted me, accused me and screamed malignantly hateful things at me. My revenge will be to live well, and to know that each night that my enemy lays her head upon her pillow, it will be her heart that has to question the reality of what she has taken for herself, while I sleep the bliss-filled restful sleep of the repented and forgiven.
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I love you. bitches.
Yup! I bet whoever preached you about how terrible a human being you are is a real saint and a perfect role model!
And that morally corrupt and despicable description usually goes side by side with Christian moral speaches. But... come to think about it thinking of another human being as something despicable is not very Christian, in fact assuming such a moral superiority stance is Pride and that is a one way ticket to Hell, as any other Deadly Sin, according to those same morals.
All this to say: screw them!
Glad you're planning on taking revenge. Enjoy your revenge, hope you also end up being very happy.
:)
It's great to have fans!
Thank you for your warm thoughts and support.
I love my fans! :)
Your adversary is probably having trouble with that beam in her eye.
I totally dig your new look! Like, TOTALLY!
Thank you! The new look is part of my new life sans hate and guilt and nasty phone calls. :)
I'm sorry. Mean people suck. I'm also sorry that I'm 900 miles away and my cell phone doesn't work here. You could always call me the old fashioned way.
SHORTY: Use your cell phone! You aren't on roaming unless it says roaming. And besides, I talked on my cell every day I was there and never had one roaming charge. And besides besides, I need to talk to you! Brat....
But I may just call you the old fashioned way. :)
ok..ok..so I called and you're correct..call me on my cell phone bitches
When we are not being despicable, immoral, terrible human beings, that is.
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