Thursday, August 28, 2008

What it is....

Catharsis: According to the American Heritage Dictionary, catharsis can mean "A release of emotional tension, as after an overwhelming experience, that restores or refreshes the spirit."

To say that I’ve been through some overwhelming emotional experiences over the last 10 years would be an understatement – not to mention the huge life changes that have occurred recently. Ironically, it is those very life changes that are my saving grace.

I’m pleased to report that after so many years of heartache and struggle, I am finally happy and healthy – both things I can attribute directly to the presence of Chris in my life. He is the one who encouraged me to seek help for my myriad of psychiatric/personality issues, and if weren’t for him forcing me to go to the ER a few months ago, I wouldn’t even be here (who knew dehydration could be so lethal!?!?) And he is the one who saw through the layers of – oh, shall we say ECCENTRICITIES – to the person who lay untapped beneath. He loved me in spite of my unloveliness and wouldn’t give up on me despite my continual complaining, fit-throwing and overriding desire to just GIVE UP.

So, it is with great relish that I say I am finally feeling better everywhere in my body from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. My blood sugar is under control thanks to my daily workouts and now that I’ve got a proper diagnosis for the issues that have plagued me all these years (with the corresponding correct medicine), I feel like a new woman.

Of course, our amazing wedding put some giddy-up in my little red wagon (love those mixed metaphors) and helped motivate me to work as hard as I have. Having great kids who really need me to be at my best also keeps me going. But more than anything, it is knowing I get to spend the rest of my life with the man who gives every ounce of himself everyday to making us happy and safe and well provided for, encouraging us in every way, that has really changed my life. Isn’t it amazing what love can do?

And you want to know what? I actually felt like dancing today. Right in my office, right in the middle of an average day, I felt so happy….I just wanted to shake it.

5 comments:

Big Plain V said...

Dancing in your office? Isn't that a symptom of mental illness?

Seriously, Bunny, good for you. I'm happy for ya.

bunnyjo georg said...

Well....perhaps if I HAD danced in my office that would be a symptom of mental illnes. Perhaps NOT dancing in my office is a symptom of mental health! ;)

Thank you for the kudos. I almost didn't post this because it sounds so...boastful and schlammy. But it kind of just burst out of me. It was supposed to be a blog about how a stupid right-wing columnist blasted Hilary Clinton's DNC speech because she used the word "catharsis." But once I started thinking about the word, well, you see what happened.

shortensweet said...

It makes me very happy that you have so much joy in your life. I've been dreaming about you (from things like you having twins that fight inside of you to shopping for kale) I think I miss miss my seester!

Chris makes me happy too! He's the reason I got my sister back.

VeeFlower said...

VERKLEMPT

HUBBYMAN said...

SINCE OUR BODIES ARE 96% WATER - GETTING DEHYDRATED IS SEROIUS. I GOT THAT WAY ONCE IN FLORIDA & I USED MY LAST OUNCE OF STRENGH TO WAKR MY GRANDFATHER. IF I HADN'T I MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN HERE. KEEP YOUR LIGUID INTAKE UP - ESPECIALLY NOW THAT YOU HAVE DIABETES ( SEE WHAT EATING TWO BEETS CAN DO!??!).